I ♥ Music

Sunday, December 30, 2007,4:36 AM

many things had happened over the holidays. exciting. exhilarating. memorable. better still, making my upcoming weeks an antidote to my confidence.

nadia: go blog.
me: i got nothing to blog.
nadia: just blog about anything. pour it all out.

maybe i should pour out.

21st December was the first time i was at Zouk and Phuture. It was great fun with Nadia and her boyfriend. thanks to them that they kept me amused like three quarts of the time.

that night i made a new friend. similar yet so different. don't know how to describe. however, to sum it all, he made me realise there isn't a need to diss myself (which i always do) and just get on with life with strong guts and confidence. that i don't have to depend on others' comments and compliments for reassurance and that i need to believe in myself, first and foremost. he didn't tell me this in my face. but his stories and the times we had been out made me realise this myself. self-realising seems to stick in my head much longer than any words being said to me.

coincidentally, sexy-Andee (CCA dance mate) talked to me about danceworks that i backed out two months ago. and i'm back in thanks to him and circumstances.

then i realised something that i had never realised before.

dancing.

we were practicing for the 'blackout - mashonda' song, last friday. initially it was just a tinge of bravery. then suddenly i felt good about it. not long after, it was a total flush of confidence when i began to look at my mates and making flirting facial expressions as they cheered for and wolf-whistled at us. it was major fun and it made me felt so good about myself. that i am good at something.

like, finally. i am good at something.

i hope this confidence will stay for the rest of my life and in whatever i do - my modules, work, social life, and not forgetting - my self.