I ♥ Music

Thursday, March 13, 2008,9:47 PM

so yesterday was the floor work issue.

initially i thought i resented doing floor work. then they started discussing about DOING or NOT DOING the floor work. i didn't know my face was blackened pissed.

frankly, i was just dead beat tired.

then i came to talk to a few people about it. it is true that it is a breakthrough for doing floor work. breaking out of my own comfort zone. how to break out of my comfort zone when i can't even lift my FATASS off the ground! we will see how things go for next week.

then i realised that it is my flaw. i will try my best, but there are some things that i just can't do. and i feel like shit of my incapabilities.

it is very good to be able to do different styles. but different people dance with different motive. for me, i dance for the things that i like and i know i can do better in. i want to be a master of one and not a jack of all trades. because i know its not possible for my physical abilities. plus, dancing is not something i would do for a living. it is my passion but not a carrier.

i know about going against all odds and be true to yourself even when there are major obstacles, blah blah BLAH. if this activity is going to affect as who i am in the negative way, it just won't do me good at all.

so if dancing is going to pull my self and confidence down, maybe i should just stick to making bracelets, necklaces and earrings.

Sunday, March 09, 2008,11:51 PM

just finished making a charm bracelet! :D

had these earrings done on Saturday, during the class itself.
i'm so proud of myself! they are PRETTY!

(if you think they are not, then don't look)

its raining pretty heavily now. supposed to be heading to Block E to meet up the girls. i will wait for the rain to subside. i was so engrossed doing the charm bracelet that i forgot that i urgently need to pee.

had to wake up early to clean up the house before the evaluator arrive. so now my room's floor is very visible. ehehe. have to maintain it from now on. no more superman stripping clothes!