I ♥ Music

Saturday, May 03, 2008,11:25 PM

so went to a wedding reception with parents at commonwealth today.
still feeling numb. had headache whole day yesterday.
saw relatives whom i never realized that they were related to me.
wonder if i could ever recognize them if i were to meet them outside on my own.
i doubt so, really.

mom's lipstick went off after eating. hiding those sexy lips behind her hand. lol.

while we were on our way there. at this traffic light, there was the fire hydrant 'Rhino'. those topless mini fire hydrant type. my uncle was like, "why don't you get yourself one of those?"
i said if i could, i would. its a convertible, man. we were looking at it while talking. one of those fire fighters looked my way and wanted to smile but can't. because my mom and my aunt are sitting next to me and my uncle was sitting in front. he was feeling weird to smile because all four of us were looking at him. lol. lucky the traffic light didn't last long.

frankly, i still feel down about the showcase.

i should sign up for reggae by mid this month.

Friday, May 02, 2008,8:49 AM

i freaking screwed up, blanked out at that simple choreo.

i am such a disgrace.

LOSER.

argh.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008,5:20 AM

i bummed the whole day.
i initially planned many things to be done today. after thinking, i went to bed and snoozed. after that, bummed in front of the television. later on, went to Sheng Siong for some toiletries. one toiletry i can't live without is a deodorant. strong deodorant that can win the war with my armpit enemy.

i'm supposed to be doing a lab report, but i end up blog-hopping and chatting. i am SO distracted, i tell you!

anyway, i went to school in the morning for NOTHING. there wasn't any lab lesson. it totally slipped off my mind. sucked. wasted petrol and Kris shut the pilot plant door at me. GRR.

got a new jacket/coat/wear-over or whatever you call it. its nice and covers my ugly ass. and its black. can never go wrong with black, man. gonna wear it out with Kambing next week :D

i swear the quiz that tells how my future is like by answering those few questions has damned the prospect of it - my future, that is. if you ever get to read it off my profile, you'll know what i mean.

i think my navel piercing is located wrongly. i feel like its too above my belly button. it will only look in place when i'm standing. i can't possible be standing all the time for the rest of my life, can i? bleah.

so the non-NYP audition was interesting. the first time i entered the studio to put my bag, i felt an intense aura surrounding me. giving such stress and pressure that by the time i went out of the studio, i was quite worried. and one of the auditioning girls gave me such an emotional feeling. so here how the story goes..

she stood in the center when she was doing the showcase. her face was so freakin' emotional and sad. the feeling i got from her was like, "i can't do this. i know i won't make it. i want this but i'm doomed. i just feel like crying! why am i in this in the first place?!".
it made me feel utterly sad too by just looking at her. the sadness was very deep. when she had done her showcase and went back to her corner of 'comfort', she laughed.

SHE LAUGHED, I TELL YOU!

I FEEL SO DAMN CHEATED. she cheated my feelings by being emotionally sad. i was so deceived!