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Tuesday, July 01, 2008,9:00 PM

i hate this @#$%ing course.
why am i in this @#$%ing course in the first place.
what the @#$% is this course about, anyway?
such a piece of $%^&..
this @#$%ing course make me realise how overwhelming are my levels of idioticity and stupidity and how low i have been and that i am not even deserved to be here in the first place. i should be doing something easier. this makes me hate studying. not like i like it to begin with. but my learning capacity seems to be extremely limited. i hate it. i hate me. i hate my @#$%ing self.

been such a @#$%ing loser. had those times i cried cause i am such a @#$%ing bloody piece of stupid $%^&. i just want to give up. halfway through my last semester before going for attachment. i feel like a total sewerage crap.

why am i like this? because i brought myself to become like this. duh. but why can't i be like those smart and motivated people with definite goal and decisive. certain of their future and what they want to do to be successful. all i am doing is bum my @#$%ing fat, smelly ass off and being such a @#$%ing useless parasite.

i have no confidence in myself and what i do. i want to just die. and not to even exist in the first place. not do what i done. back to neutral. or even demolished from this face of this earth cause i am of no use. @#$%ing no use.

i @$%ing hate myself
i @$%ing hate my mentor
i @#$%ing hate modules
i @#$%ing @#$%ing hate my course

i fucking hate me.