I ♥ Music

Thursday, July 17, 2008,3:24 AM

life's a bitchass whore - period

stressed by coming exams. i want to quit the production. by the time the practices get intensified, i will be having attachment. ghetto/krump breaks my back and every other parts of my muscles (if i have any) and i wouldn't wanna risk it when i go for my attachment. what more now my journey is from edge to edge of singapore (pasir ris to jurong island). i wouldn't have time to drop by school anymore. i'll be officially quitting production. sorry for the disappointment.

pem approached me earlier on today. she asked me if i'm okay. i said of course i'm okay - to get her off my back. i am in no mood to talk to her. seeing her already made me feel so emotional. all angry and upset on myself being useless and stupid and having grades that bring me nowhere. employers will be weary by looking at my grades. angry too cause hope that she might actually help me with some solution that i might be able to apply. but no, she burnt my hope with her words: study hard study hard (X100000 times). like that's a bloodydamneffective solution. she didn't get me. she will never get what i meant. she will never understand me. was so angry and upset that i cried before driving home.

i have more important things to achieve first. frankly, i am so demoralized. its so bad that quitting this course is a tempting option. but i don't have anything else if i quit now. i'm getting older. can't be a parents' parasite for long. there's so much things i wanna do in future. i want my own performance car! own money! being on my own!

i need to pick up my arabic back. was doing up my resume for my attachment a minute ago. how nice it would look when i have 3 languages instead of pathetic 2.

i'm off to do AIC revision for tomorrow's quiz. heard the quiz is a bitch. scary.